Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Millennium and motherhood today
When Satan is bound in a single life,
The millennium has already begun.
In that home,
In that life.
President Spencer W. Kimball
I saw this quote on the refrigerator of my friend and it rooted deeply into me, as if I had been waiting for it, looking for it most my life but wasn't aware of any of this.
I like it because it means that I don't have to wait for the millennium to start. It can start in me today.
For me it says I can be ready now, my family can be ready now. I can be in the Savior's presence now. For me it is about creating a space where the Savior can BE, welcome, comfortable and Himself, in all His Light and Truth. That is about the powerful affects of the atonement in my life if I repent I have access to Him. It is about my readiness in mind, my willingness of heart and my desire to seek the spirit when creating a space, a home where this happens. I can be ready for Him, I can create a home that is ready for Him.
When I depend on Christ to make myself and my home ready, He comes. While I wait on the Lord (DC 98:1-3), while I wait for the Lord, I will be nor more worhty to be in His presence then, than now. He has keep His promise to redeem me, I can do mine.
When am I in the presence of God and what am I doing to create this readiness in my home. For me one of the most powerful tools I have the Holy Ghost. I try to teach my children to practice hearing him. What does he feel like to you? What does he sound like to you? How does he speak to you? I ask them.
I try to ask them daily when they recognized his voice and influence in their lives. I must know these things of myself or I cannot guide them in this process. I have not been surprised that when they most feel him, is when they are still, quiet, paying attention to their "inner man", when they most FEEL themselves, they feel the Holy Ghost enLIGHTEN them. Any distraction prohibits this, screen time is one more, plentiful distraction. Like anything else priority and balance must be given to times of reflection.
I can teach my children what I do to create that quiet time with prayer, scriptures the temple etc. but the real challenge is to teach how it feels to open their heart, keep it soft, letting love in and yielding to God, for HIS glory.
The truth is I cannot give them a testimony of Christ, or I cannot give them the feeling of the Holy Ghost. I cannot make them want to soften their heart or give them intent to glorify God; not me or themselves. I can only help them identify who the Holy Ghost is and what his purpose is and how he feels. In their young age it is their responsibility to recognize him, listen to him and come to know Christ. I can believe that they are fully capable of doing this.
I can only learn these doctrines (2 Ne 31:21, 3 Ne 11: 31-41) of myself and then the most I believe I can do is to share them with my children in pure testimony. I am completely dependent as a mother on the Holy Ghost to teach them to "Understand" (DC 68:25) to "carry it into their heart" (2 Ne 33:1),to give them desire to love Christ and "convert" (Is 6:10)them to their Savior.
My responsibility as a mom is to secure the right kind of time, and the right kind of space, and be a witness of the Holy Ghost and His purpose (while I'm doing the dishes or tucking them or driving them to school).
This is motherhood and ushering in the millennuim in my life and in my home. It is creating a space where my children want to know Christ, love Him and desire to give their will to Him over and over and over again....because after all they are my children and these are the last days.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Emotional Honesty
In this way humility is lost because honest humility’s fundamental step is emotional honesty and our acceptance of our most vulnerable and emotionally raw self. Denial of our honest emotions is the foundation of pride, personal protection out of desperation and the fast current of moving our escapes to levels of addiction. The power of emotional honesty or humility and acceptance of where we are emotionally, is we are never alone in it. It is only in that moment where we can feel fully the presence of God and His deep and abiding love for us as manifested in the atonement of Christ. His encircling arms are ever present in that broken hearted moment as we are stripped of pride and swallowed in the power of His desire forgive us and love us it is impossible to not feel our own desire to open and extend our heart more to receive even more of Him if possible. In our newfound desire to be open to His influence we diligently seek to know what we can do to please Him, to serve Him and our willingness to live in accordance with our desire easily manifests in our daily practices and habits in seeking and doing His will before our own or someone else’s.
The doctrine of humility, yielding or will or a broken heart and a contrite (willing) spirit is the key to charity, the pure love of Christ and becoming like Him. It is in our constant striving to become like Christ that our happiness is ensured and His promise linked to it is fulfilled. Determination to protect and maintain a broken heart and a contrite spirit or a soft heart (towards God’s will for us and in our dealing with other’s Matt 25:40) in times of adversity expedite the opportunity for our personal growth, happiness and the Holy Ghost’s ability to sanctify us through refining. These godly characteristics further prepare us to be in His glorious presence so that we might receive in our mortality bit by bit a fullness of all that He has and all that He is, all starts with emotional honesty and acceptance of where we are and a desire to turn to Christ so that He can help us to know Him and become like Him.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Manipulation 2
Everyone is vulnerable to manipulation.
I think we develop some of the following "fragile core self” characteristics when we have been in a relationship with a Toxic person. We learn (we are trained) to get along with them adopting some of the following characteristics in the name of self preservation and emotional survival. Just be aware that this survival mode although once helpful makes you a prime target for manipulation.
You are more vulnerable to manipulation if:
1. Your identity is defined by others approval of you, if your sense of peace is dependent on agreeing with others, if your sense of worth comes from pleasing others. You are responsible for forming your identity.
2. You believe your sense of identity and “self” needs to be invisible to get along with others. You are responsible for asserting your “self” so that those who love you can understand and honor you.
3. If your afraid of negative emotions; yours or someone else’s. You’re are responsible to learn the self reflective lessons of your negative emotions, these help give your identity shape.
4. If you’re overly responsible. You are responsible for maintaining a balance in your responsibilities ie. not feeling overwhelmed. You are also responsible for not stealing someone else’s opportunity to learn, grow and feel empowered.
5.If you see yourself as a victim, powerlessness or suffer from learned helplessness or poverty of belief. You are responsible for seeing the that you are the most powerful agent in your life and looking for the opportunities that reinforce that truth.
6. If you doubt yourself, distrust your emotions and your own judgment. You are responsible for recognizing and trusting your feelings so that you can understand the truth of yourself. If you don’t recognize and count your feelings as important, in other words, trust your feelings, no one else will either.
Until you change or modify your beliefs about yourself, you will continue to be a prime target for manipulation.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Peacemaker 1
“For the time speedily cometh that the Lord God shall cause a great division among the people,…..”
(2 Nephi 30:10)
Those that know peace will divide from those that do not know peace.
“…..the wolf dwell with the lamb;…..”
(2 Nephi 30:12)
“Let the mountains shout for joy, and all ye valleys cry aloud; and all ye seas and dry lands tell the wonders of your Eternal King! And ye rivers, and brooks, and rills, flow down with gladness. Let the woods and all the trees of the field praise the Lord; and ye solid rocks weep for joy! And let the sun, moon, and the morning stars sing together, and let all the sons of God shout for joy! And let the eternal creations declare his name forever and ever! And again I say, how glorious is the voice we hear from heaven, proclaiming in our ears, glory, and salvation, and honor, and immortality, and eternal life; kingdoms, principalities, and powers!”
(DC 128:23)
All living things will know peace.
“They shall not hurt nor destroy in all my holy mountain…..”
(2 Nephi 30:15)
“And it shall come to pass in the last days, that the mountain of the LORD’s house shall be established in the top of the mountains, and shall be exalted above the hills; and all nations shall flow unto it.
And many people shall go and say, Come ye, and let us go up to the mountain of the LORD, to the house of the God of Jacob; and he will teach us of his ways, and we will walk in his paths: for out of Zion shall go forth the law, and the word of the LORD from Jerusalem.
And he shall judge among the nations, and shall rebuke many people: and they shall beat their swords into plowshares, and their spears into pruninghooks: nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more.” (Isaiah 2:2-4)
The idea of war in any relationship will be confusing.
“…..for the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the Lord as the waters cover the sea.” (2 Nephi 30:15)
“And truth is knowledge of things as they are, and as they were, and as they are to come….Man was also in the beginning with God. Intelligence, or the light of truth,… Light and truth forsake that evil one.” (DC 93: 24, 29, 37)
We will return to our original state, having added to our Light and Truth eternally.
What is the knowledge that will lead us to such peace? The same knowledge that has been revealed to us already, the knowledge that is revealed in our priesthood covenants.
“And this greater priesthood administereth the gospel and holdeth the key of the mysteries of the kingdom, even the key of the knowledge of God.
Therefore, in the ordinances thereof, the power of godliness is manifest.
And without the ordinances thereof, and the authority of the priesthood, the power of godliness is not manifest unto men in the flesh;
For without this no man can see the face of God, even the Father, and live.”
(Section 84:19 - 22)
And…our priesthood covenants gives us access to personal revelation and knowledge of the Truth of the peaceable things of Godliness….as taught by the Holy Ghost.
“If thou shalt ask, thou shalt receive revelation upon revelation, knowledge upon knowledge, that thou mayest know the mysteries and peaceable things—that which bringeth joy, that which bringeth life eternal.”
(Section 42:61)
“Therefore it is given to abide in you…. the Comforter; the peaceable things of immortal glory; the truth of all things; that which quickeneth all things, which maketh alive all things; that which knoweth all things, and hath all power according to wisdom, mercy, truth, justice, and judgment.”
(Moses 6:61)
I deeply appreciate how these things interact inside me each day they have a direct connect to my ability to feel inner peace as well as to make peace in my relationship to those I know and love, to others I don’t know well or at all and to all other living things on earth. I believe a true peacemaker desires all those….peaces.
Friday, October 30, 2009
The Truth about Ancestors
Here is their experience:
"After a recent family home evening in which we scoured Elder Scott's recent conference talk, To Acquire Spiritual Guidance, for the "advanced" steps of receiving personal revelation in the form of spiritual dictation, I put a spiral notebook and pen beside my bed. I wanted to be ready. After all, Elder Scott had borne witness that I, personally, could learn to master these principles, and I believed him.
A few nights later, I was awakened in the middle of the night and could not get back to sleep after trying for some time. I finally rolled out of bed onto my knees and began praying for sleep. As I prayed, words began to come distinctly to my mind, and I grabbed my notebook, pen and flashlight and began to write what I was receiving.
What followed was an amazing, sacred experience. I felt that one of my deceased grandfathers, who my mother had always talked about as though he were almost perfect, wanted to do some pointing out of and repenting of some attitudes and patterns inherited from his fathers and perpetuated by him that had negatively affected my life and the lives of my siblings. When, at first, as this information was coming, I balked at seeing his faults, this came:
"We would rather you see us as human and lay aside our imperfection, then see us as "perfect' and blindly copy them and pass them on."
Sometimes it may seem "disloyal" to see those we love--our parents and grandparents--as human, with weaknesses and strengths, instead of as perfect. But I have learned that once we are on the other side of the veil, we would rather our posterity see and graciously, gently lay aside our weaknesses, than imagine we are perfect and perpetuate them. I can imagine that it would be a cause of great remorse to have set certain behaviors in motion while in mortality, and then watch from beyond the veil as posterity whom I loved "loyally" copied my mistakes. How difficult it would be to repent and really feel "done" with those mistakes if there were those in mortality still suffering from them! I am thankful for this "permission" to see the truth of things as they really are, for "the truth shall set [us] free"!
--Anonymous
Worshiping our ancestors and appreciating who they are....is not the same.
Sometimes I talk to a client who doesn't discern this difference I like to explore the question...what is wrong with being perfect?
I would be interested in your insights...What is wrong with being perfect?
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Feeling Questions 1
1. What is a feeling?
2. What is the purpose of feeling?
3. Why are people emotionally dishonest?
4. Have you ever been emotionally dishonest with someone you love? Why?
5. How many feelings do you feel daily?
6. How in tune are you to how you feel?
7. Do you feel out of touch with your feelings? What gets in your way of paying attention to how you feel?
8. What is a sensation?
9. Do believe there are such things as bad feelings? What are they? What does bad mean to you?
10. Have you ever felt afraid to feel your emotions? What were you afraid of?
11. What is your deepest fear today?
12. What breaks your heart?
13. What makes you feel strong?
14. When was the last time you felt still, quiet and filled with peace?
15. If you knew your true success was eminent, what would you do?
16. Do you spend more time thinking about how others feel or how you feel?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Boundaries
There is no intimacy without boundaries.
Boundaries, set appropriately, create intimacy.
Boundaries are not solely what we say they are what we do when our beliefs and entitlements have been violated.
The truth about boundaries is they free us (by keeping us on track and focused) to fulfill the purpose of our creation and have peace and be happy. The least boundaries do is protect us from people who feel entitled to violate (intentionally or unintentionally) our boundaries to meet their needs.
A subtle boundary destroyer is being too busy, distraction. Daily meditative time offers us the time we need to deliberately create our emotional world spiritually first (with the guidance of our Creator) by visualizing ourselves moving through our day, our world, in our relationships before it becomes our reality.
There are all kinds of Personal boundaries.
Physical boundaries.
Sexual boundaries.
Spiritual boundaries.
Emotional boundaries.
Religious boundaries.
Mental boundaries.
Social boundaries.
Etc.
Trust is a part of the foundation of any healthy, successful relationship. Setting clear boundaries allow others who love us show us their love by respecting our boundaries and welcoming what they can do to honor our unique self. In this way boundaries create an environment of trust.
Before we can be powerful in unity it is requisite that we have strength in our separate identity.
Enmeshment and intimacy is not the same.
Intimacy is created when two separate, different people come together, willingly open to sharing and disclosing (in reciprocity) their differences and similarities, as well as their strengthens and weaknesses and in return understanding and respect in those differences and similarities is offered by the other. All of this created with appropriate boundaries, that we choose. This is a powerful element of creating an emotionally safe place.
Things that threaten intimacy; a need or demand for agreement, conformity, sameness, arrogance, pride, lack of understanding or empathy in the sharing moment, lack of reciprocity, rejection, being judgmental of the other instead of receiving what is shared, Etc.
This is true in our marriages, in our parent child relationships, in our friendships, in our communities of church and work, neighborhoods etc. The level of appropriate disclosure is relative to the relationship.
Intimacy and charity are close companions.
Boundary foundation
God is Light and Truth (DC 93:9) We are all children of God (Psalms 82:6). We are intelligent beings. Intelligence has always existed. Intelligence is made up of Truth and Light (DC 93: 29-30). This is our Divine Worth and core of our Eternal Identity. The more that Truth and Light fill us (DC93:29-30), the more peace of mind, harmony of heart, and completeness of happiness define us, for real. Peace, inner harmony and happiness are powerful states of being (Christ-like) that naturally create an atmosphere to nurture and grow others into the same. The purpose of boundaries is to honor, add too and protect the Light and Truth that was restored to us (by Christ’s atonement) from our birth on earth (Doctrine and Covenants 93:38). Every child of God is entitled to honor, cultivate and protect the Light and Truth inherently in them.
When we move contrary to our Light and Truth we betray our most core self. When we betray ourselves we trade Light and Truth for darkness, confusion, deceit and we distance ourselves from our Divine Worth and Eternal Identity and most sadly from our Creator. This causes us to forget what and who we inherently are (Moses 5:9-15) and our beliefs, words and behavior entropy (DC 93::39) into thinking that our fallen state (without Christ’s atonement) defines us, eventually we allow others to do the same.
Betrayal from others is when, for whatever reason, they treat us other than who and what we are, my use of criticism or manipulation, it is all for personal gain whether conscious or not. We are all entitled to define and set our own boundaries, tailored to our unique levels of comfort, that maintain, nurture and protect our Divine Worth and Eternal Identity.
Our priesthood covenants are agreed upon boundaries that we willingly enter into, in which both God and we, promise that we will remember who we are and keep that perspective in mind as we live out mortality.